Becoming Venus – 2014-2015 Cycle

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Back in December I heard the call of our ancient mother Inanna. She came to me and proposed that we get to know each other better. She planted in my heart the desire to have a stronger and better connection with the feminine divine. For a week I wondered how I would be able to do this or better yet where to start. So I did what I am accustomed to do, which is let my higher self know what I want, then let my desire be known to the Universe and let them work things out. Not even a week after that I logged in to my Facebook account and saw an invitation to a workshop about the Venus the Cycle which applied the account of Inanna’s Decent into the Underworld. I immediately knew this is what I must do so I accepted the invitation and was looking forward to our first the meeting.

Our first meeting came and it was everything I expected and more, I soon began to realized that what I had signed up for was not just a class on how the Venus Cycle and Inanna’s Decent correlate but that we would actually embark in the journey ourselves. We were going to become Venus, we were going to go through the gates and the experiences that Inanna encountered while in the underworld. So I will be writing some blogs about my experiences and feelings through out this journey. The cycle commenced on January 11th which coincidentally was the day that my shaman drum circle met for the first time. It was a great day! Wonderful people attended the circle and I really felt a wonderful energy.

We still had two weeks prior to the cycle starting so as homework we decided to take a special time on the Fridays preceding January 11th to meditate, connect with her in a more intentional way. The first time I connected with her was while I was driving (I know dangerous but what can I say I get in the zone quite easily), I saw a woman who looks like Mother Mary (which it was interesting because I have never had any interest or connection to her during my christian years) sitting beside a river beckoning me to join her. Unfortunately since I was driving, that was not the right time to continue along with the journey. So I made a note of it and decided to go back to it as soon as I had the open time to just do some journey-work. Throughout the days while doing some of my tasks, the vision of her kept popping into my mind and so I knew that she wanted to connect rather sooner than later. Once I was done with all my mundane tasks I took a moment and let go and visited with her.

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As I entered the Underworld it was dark night however the stars were shinning brightly in the sky. The river was absolutely beautiful, reflecting that gorgeous night sky. It was moving fast but it was calm. She was sitting to my left and she beckoned me from the distance to come over and sit beside her on the rock. As I approached her, I felt the dew on the grass and as I grew near she extended her hand and I took it. She pulled me in and just held me in a hug just overlooking the water. Not a word was said. Just sitting in silence contemplating the beautiful scenery. Feeling utterly loved, accepted and it felt like a maternal connection. I have to say I felt her warmth throughout my body. I felt so at ease, so just wonderfully connected. There were no words said but I felt understood. I was overwhelmed by a love that really felt unconditional. As time progressed I knew it was time for me to leave. I got up gave her a hug a kiss and told her that I would be back and she motioned her head in a way that said I’ll be waiting. I felt recharged, I felt as I could take on the world.

As I came back I started to wonder who she was. I had the chance to ask her but I didn’t. I felt so comfortable and the time we spent together felt so intimate that it didn’t even cross my mind to ask! Now I was kicking myself ass. So what does my heart knows to be true about her, I know she is full of love, she can appreciate beauty, she values silence and perfect maternal love emanates from her. She is ever forgiving and understanding and you get the sense that she not only accepts you for who you are but loves you in that manner as well. I consider myself lucky to have had a wonderful mother but like many of us they too are having their own journey and I didn’t quite felt loved in such a manner by her. I always feel judged and I find myself feeling like I am a disappointment to her in many ways. We have very different views of the world around us and our lives couldn’t be any more different. I know that I have committed mistakes in our relationship but I do love her very much and I want her to be happy. As I write all this, I am beginning to understand why this aspect of her would decide to present itself to me. It is probably the easiest and fastest way she could find  to enter my heart, she was I guess everything I really needed at that moment in time.

On the start of the cycle, January 11th I journeyed with the intent of connecting with Inanna herself. I  asked my teacher if he would take me to her and so he did. Once in her presence she greeted me like my closest of female friends would. She was young and full of life. She was certainly in her maiden aspect, full of vitality. There were others there present as well. Everyone was talking and sharing with each other. It felt almost like I was at a party. We talked very casual about my personal goals during this Venus cycle and then we danced, danced and danced some more! We were having such a great time! My teacher came for me as it was time for me to return and so I bid her farewell. During my visit with her I felt happy, carefree and as if I had just spent a day with my best friends. It was truly a very joyful experience.

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On January 17th I woke up in a mood of self-care. I looked at the mirror and noticed that I needed to give myself some TLC! As a mother of 4 children and being that is the middle of winter I have let myself go. I had this desire in my heart to make myself feel beautiful and irresistible. I did my regular mom and wife morning duties and then I was off to my bedroom. I looked up my YouTube chant playlist and turned it up. I entered the shower and before I realized it, I am chanting up a storm! I come out, I meticulously take care of long hair and start grooming myself. A few hours later my husband comes in and he looks at me with a spark on his eyes and tells me how beautiful I look and that I looked like a goddess. I laughed as I gave him a big kiss and then the thought crossed my mind. I am becoming Venus! I then login in to my FB and see that today was the day that Venus is once again visible as the Morning Star. Then a little voice in me said now wonder I had such an urge and on top of that it was Friday, Her day! I took at that moment some time to connect with her and let her know that I appreciate it and valued the way she connected with me on this day. I am so looking forward to this journey that I have embarked on with Her and my fellow spiritual friends. I am very interested in seeing how my spiritual life is changed and how much better my relationship with the Divine Feminine will be once this cycle ends in 19 months.

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